I Don't Give A Damn!

u've seen my blog, so wat?!

u don like it?! then don b so kepo n go n read it!

its as simple as that!

its my blog, i can write anything i want...

i don even care if u write bout me!

i write my blog as a way of releasing my anger, frus,

n watever i feel...is that wrong?!

i hav every rite 2 write watever i want in my blog!

its not illegal n its not wrong at all!

watever i write here i true, i said it b4...

i don bullshit in my blog!

i'm a straight 4ward person,

if i dislike u then i won pretend 2 like u!

u n i r both human, we all hav our diff thinking...

maymay said this b4 'everyone talks bout everyone'

i agree wif her bout this...

so if i talk bout u in my blog, u can jus ignore...

u can also write bout me wat! go ahead!

i don giv a damn! but i won b so freaking sensitif like u

n giv such a big respond!

u keep telling others on facebook that u're not piss wif me...

come on! don bullshit! don kk n play innocent!

if u're angry wif me b brave enough 2 express it...

don keep telling people u're not angry wif me...

anyway, i giv up d k...

calvin can hang out wif u n may

n i don care anymore but i will treat him as a friend...

i'm not saying that i admit defeat, i'm not a coward...

i'm jus smart enough 2 walk away

n not make this prob grow bigger...

i can put the blame on myself...

its very normal 4 me

cuz i get blame alot 4 many things that i never did...

so this does not make any difference...

if u wanna blame someone 4 all this, blame it on me

n not yxin, zching n christie cuz they had absolutely nothing 2 do wif this...

they never tell me 2 do anyhting...

i, myself had tried so hard 2 keep this prob from happening n calvin leaving us...

i don wanna waste my energy n time on u n this prob anymore...

n i'm done trying 2 win calvin back 2 my gang...

if he wants 2 go n hang out wif u n may willingly,

i hav nothing 2 say then

cuz its his choice...he is human n he has his own rights...

as long as he's happy then its fine...

but i'll always remember that u r the 1 who started all of this...

my frenz n i weren't even gonna fight u...

all we wanted was calvin back n u stole him away...

but he has chosen 2 b wif u n may n thats fine wif us...

u can make everyone around me hate me...

if they hurt me or watever,

all i noe is that i'm innocent n i did nothing wrong...

so there is no need 4 me 2 beg u on my knees n say sori...

that will never happen...

Calvin, Please Just Come Back To Us...

pls calvin,

jus leave kah wei n maymay(2 bloody bitches!)...

don u c wat they hav done?

they've alreadi stolen u away from us...

u've misunderstood d,

we noe u're innocent n we don blame u 4 anything...

we're not avoiding or ignoring u

but avoiding n ignoring those bitches...

since u're always wif them we ended up avoiding u 2...

we didin do it on purpose n we never meant 2 hurt u...

all we ever wanted was 2 stay away from may n k.wei...not u...

i tried 2 prevent this prob from happening...

i tried 2 not let them steal u away but i failed...

i should hav tried harder...

but i've warned u b4...

i told u 2 b careful wif may n k.wei...they cant b trusted!

i don think u took my advice seriously...

if u did, u wouldn't b hanging out wif them nw...

yxin, christie n zching miss u....so do i...

cant u c that may n k.wei has alreadi

succeed making u leave our gang?

n u went off wif them willingly...

u hav 2 trust yr frenz, trust us,

who had never betrayed u n

has always appreciate n treasure u...

u might think that i'm trying 2 brainwash u

or something but i'm not...i'm telling u facts! the truth!

i don noe who r u gonna believe...

r u gonna trust yr frenz who u've known u

since form 1 n hav been so close 2 u....

or r u gonna trust a girl(k.w aka friend stealing bitch!)

who've known u for onli a few weeks

n who(k.wei) is trying 2 influence u???

she's ruining our friendship n u r clueless...

u don even noe wats going on...

i've alreadi been telling u from the start...

i told u b4 that eversince k.wei joined our gang,

u haven been talkin 2 us much...

i told u b4 but u said that nothing is wrong

n u r treating us like normal...

but calvin, u're not yxin/zching/me...

u don noe hw u made us feel...we feel neglected...

bcuz of her u r not close wif us anymore

we r yr frenz thats why we told u b4 bout hw we feel...

but u didin even take it seriously...

u assume that everything was normal b4...

wat bout nw??? u sit wif them during recess

n the rest of the gang sit in the opposite direction...

is that normal 2 u? thats not wat we used 2 do...

we all watch u n those bitches sitting 2gether...

n we wonder hw 2 win u back from them...

we haven given up yet...

we still hav hope that u will come back 2 us...

we jus wan that day 2 come faster...

wen can we sit 2gether again wif u calvin???

n away from those bitches??? when???

pls jus come back 2 us calvin n things will go back 2 normal...

our life isn't fun without u...

we can live without may n k.wei

but not without u...

everything i've said here r true...

i don lie in my blog...

its up 2 u 2 believe watever

n whoever u wan 2 believe...yr choice...

which side u pick, n watever the decision is...

we will love u 4ever as a friend no matter wat...

we will remember all the fun

n happy times we've been through in our lives...

we appreciate u very much n we will never treat u like

hw we treat those terrible bitches...

(givin them cold shoulders all the way!)

we love u calvin n we miss u very much...

u might not value us as frenz but we do...

we always had n forever will...

u're our best n close friend calvin...

u mean alot 2 us...

but i don noe wat do we mean 2 u nw...

Form 4 Mid Year Exam...

2 weeks,

jus 2 more weeks

n the exam will b over...
the 2 week school holiday will start rite after the exam is finished...

i'm looking 4ward 2 that...

i'm looking 4ward 2 go out wif my frenz...

until nw i still don noe wat r they planning...
i hav 3 new unwatch dvds(anime)

n i'm also very looking 4ward 2 watch them after the exam...

rite nw all i can do is 2 stare at them

2gether wif the rest of my other anime series

all arranged in a tidy manner on the bookshelf...

its killing me cuz its so tempting!

i wanna watch but i cant, n its all bcuz of the stupid exam!

i haven even finish reading my novel 'wicked'...

i didin even read half of the book!

i stopped reading my novel on the 3rd week b4 the exam (sad....><'')

again i hav 2 wait patiently until the exam is over...

the onli thing that is motivating me...

is 2 think bout all the fun things i can do after the exam!

i'm also getting very sick of mama n papa asking me the same thing everday!

like 'hw's yr exam 2day?? study alreadi anot 4 2moro's test??'

its so boring hearing n answering those ques. everyday...

after the exam should b even more worst!

mama n papa will surely keep asking me whether

i've gotten my results n asking bout my marks...

if the results don satisfy them...

i'll b drowning in a pool of their lectures, scolding, complains...

haizz, the life of a student is suckish!

i'll bet that in college n in uni...

things will get much worse...

i'll suffer more...

but 4 nw as a form 4 student,

i'll jus hav 2 study n try my best 2 get satisfying grades 4 this mid term exam...

i jus wan 2 get it over wif...

n then i can enjoy+appreciate the 2 week school holiday...(sigh...)

2 weeks...

onli 2 weeks left...

it will b all over soon...

Friendship Problems Are Not Easy To Solve...

i don noe why

but my group of frenz

aren't as close as we used 2 b this year

eversince we all went 2 diff classes...

ah juan, christie, calvin, kah kiat n wong r in the same class

yxin n zching r in the same class wif me...

n TQ GOD that 'fan su' is not in the same class as me...

if not then i will surely die...

having her around is like going through hell!

ok 4get bout 'fan su' its not bout her...

the main thing is that ah juan n i r not close anymore

n i don like it...not one bit!

i cant call her all the time cuz she has no house phone

n calling her hp wif my house phone is expensieve...

my dad has been giving me tongue-lashings

everytime the phone bill comes...

me calling ah juan will b the most expensieve...

i noe its expensieve but then if i don call her n giv her updates,

i don feel connected wif her like we used 2 b...

even if i c her in school nw,

i don noe wat should i talk wif her...

ah juan goes 2 the same tuition wif me...she carpools wif me...

thats the onli time i can giv her updates n talk...

we don talk during tuition at all...

we jus lol 2gether wen the teachers crack up some silly jokes...

even if we did talk, its during our 30 min tuition break...

i've talked 2 my mom bout hw i feel...

she said there is nothing i can do

cuz thats wat happens wen u're in diff classes wif yr frenz...

but at least i hav yxin, zching n jazzmint wif me in class

so i'm not lonely at all...

but i miss ah juan...

i hav many bff n she is 1 one them...

nw i'm very close wif jazz, yxin n zching...i love them lar!

i jus wish that 3 of them including me

r in the same class wif ah juan, christie, calvin n kah kiat...

n noob dude(wong..lolx)

las year we were all in the same class n it was very fun...

we joke n play so much in class like crazy!

haizz, eversince kah wei joined our group...

the group was like slowly breaking up...

we didin argue or anything,

its jus that we wanna stay far away from kah wei n 'fan su'...

these 2 r always 2gether n they r in the same class...

worst still, calvin join kah wei n 'fan su'...

so yxin, zching, christie n i ended up staying away from calvin 2...

its not his fault, we're jus trying 2 stay away from k.w n f.s....not clavin...

i feel like my frenz n i hav lost calvin 2 them...

i think calvin has been influence by them...

kah wei will surely follow calvin wherever he goes...

that bitch did say she wanted 2 'kao' him...

EWW! they don match at all!

so kah wei cant stay away from my girl frenz n calvin 2....

hw annoying n frus 2 hav her around...

i cant solve this friendship prob...

i'm trying 2 think of ideas 2 pull back our friendship but i hav none...

i need help! i'm still not giving up,

but i don noe if my frenz hav alreadi given up

on trying 2 win calvin 2 come back 2 our side again...

i warned calvin b4 bout maymay n kah wei...

but calvin is a gentleman...

he doesn't know hw 2 reject anything from k.w n f.s...

so if he cant beat them he has no choice but 2 join them...

if i hav 3 wishes...

i would wish that kah wei n maymay

were never in smkbrp...

if it weren't 4 them...

i wouldn't hav 2 deal wif this prob...

i seriously hate them!!! they've ruined everything!

cant things jus go back 2 normal?

normal as in like i wish kah wei had never join us

n that we've never met maymay...

everyone in the group would b happy

n all of us will b closer like las year...

i still love my frenz no matter wat...muax!

but i will 4ever hate k.h n lmm!!!

You've Been Nothing But Trouble!

k.w, eversince u join our group,

u've been nothing but trouble...

nobody invited u 2 come n hang out wif us...

u invited yrself...rude much??

u think u can jus shove in2 our group

n make yrself feel like u're 1 of us?

think again...u're not welcome at all!

the 1st time i saw u, i alreadi had that dislike feeling 2wards u...

i shouldn't judge a book by its cover...

but sometimes my guesses r rite...

nw that i know u better...

u're actually worse than i expected u 2 b...

u're so hiao, so annoying, u're very very sensitive(another l.m.m),

u always try so hard 2 b one of us, u're dumb 2...

i'm not saying that i'm a smart-ass or anything

but these r jus facts n from my point of view....

why do u hav 2 b so hiao?? n especially 2 calvin??

oh yeah! u told yxin b4 u wanna kao him...

i don even noe if u're being serious...

u always try 2 get attention from calvin,

wen u talk 2 him u hav 2 b very close 2 him...

geez, wat r u trying 2 do woman?? seduce him??

eww! i don wanna noe the details!

wen u try 2 kao calvin,

u noe that i had been observing u guys...(i don stalk them k!)

well calvin is my close friend n his a nice guy

(i don like like him k...don get the wrong idea...

n i'm not jealous but jus trying 2 protect calvin from getting hurt)

but he does not belong 2 u n will never b...

i will definitely make sure of that...

u guys don look gud 2gether anyway n many people agree wif me 2...

u noe that i don support u 2 kao calvin

so u wrote many chinese post on facebook bout me

saying that thats the 'way' u talk 2 calvin

n if i don like it i hav 2 get use 2 it...lame lar...

(write in chinese? as if i don read chinese! yr eng suxx thats why! lolx)

i noe u r emm song wif me d...

very obvious lar...

don hav 2 b a genius 2 figure that out...=p

nex time if got any parties/functions,

i will make sure that u're not invited...pui yee's bday was yesterday n i didin invite u! haha!

hey no point inviting u lar, my sis don even noe u!

i jus hope that i can tahan yr attitude...

if not then one day i might jus burst out yelling at u...

i wish u could jus stay out of everyone in my group's life

n everything will b peaceful n more happy without u!

I Seriously Hate You LMM!

eversince that incident/misunderstanding,

i cant seem 2 find a way 2 4giv u...

i hate u even more as each day passes!

i tried 2 4giv n 4get, but i jus cant!

cuz...its like after that incident,

i look at u from a different point of view nw...

i started 2 c more of yr bad side...n i thought,

'oh was i 2 blind 2 c the REAL U all this time??

wat took me so long 2 snap out of that illusion

n come back 2 reality 2 c wat u reali r???'

but nw everything is clear...

u treat yr friends like trash! abuse is more likely!

i asked u hw 2 do maths, 2 teach me...

i giv u wrong answer u try 2 hit me n threaten me, also yell at me!

u made me cry 2! i cry wondering hw can u treat friends like this?? like i'm an animal!

i asked yxin n zching 2 teach me u didin allow them 2 teach me!

u said i can onli follow yr way!

i wanna listen 2 teacher's teaching/follow the text book examples,

u yell at me n said that it wont help me improve

n that everything in the text book n watever teacher said r all crap n bullshit!

u said do it yr way, follow yr method...

n yr methods r all wrong!

n still u act so berlagak! wat a joke!

u made ah jaun cry n she jus ask u 2 help her essay homework...

giv her tips then can lar! is helping her against the law??

she's asking u 2 help her wif homework lar not 2 sell drugs!

wen ah juan turn 2 me n yxin 4 help, u forbid us 2 help her...hw cruel!

u treated calvin the worst! u noe his a guy n guys r tough...

so u bully him wif all yr might!

u teach him science n maths...he gav u wrong answers...

u whack him wif books, hit him, yell at him, threaten him!!!!!!!!

n once u hit him until yr ugly, dirty, long fingernails cut his neck until it bleeded!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!

n u didin even say sori but u jus smile n laugh!!!! u're so EVIL!!!!

is that very funny 2 u??!

does hurting people make u feel very happy??

if yes, then girl u r seriously SICK! u go 4 so many caunseling sessions

n they r still not helping u! of course lar, u go there so that u can ponteng class!

u're so damn lc! always think u r gud in everything!

always think u're rite!

wen u're wrong u don admit, u deny n giv many lame excuses!

u're so freaking ego! is it so hard 2 say i'm sori wen u're wrong???

u're very fake! always say people yong sui

but then u r the one who try 2 get attention from them...try 2 b close 2 them! faker!

very yong sui! u look like a complete bitch!

like 2 show off! wen christie saw yr handbag,

she asked if it is Guess but u were like a peacock...

u said 'sori lor, i don carry Guess, its Gucci'...

but christie is reali gud at knowing whether it is branded or fake....

IT WAS FAKE!!! U SAID IT WAS REAL!!! LOLXXX!!!!!!!!

wat a laugh! trying 2 pretend 2 b noe bout branded stuffs!!!!!!!!!

a bragger! u brag bout everything!!!

u always talk bout branded stuffs as if u noe everthing but then u noe nothing! lame!!!

love getting attention! (if tak dapat u will em song that person)

u always think that without u, my friends n i cant survive...

its like it is a must 2 hav u! well news flash!

we don need u at all! u make our lives miserable!

u always backstab yr ji muis! well guess wat?

wat goes around comes around!

nw my friends n i backstab u all the time!

i never backstab my frenz if they hav done nothing wrong 2 me

n if i value them very much...i'll b true 2 them if they do the same 2 me...

u make everyone around u dislike u cuz of yr horrible attitude!

example, ken hou thought u were a nice person...

thought u both can b great frenz

wen u both sat 2gether in class n u treated him like shit...

he moved far away from where u r sitting nw...

he told me yr attitude stinks! n i agree wif him...

nw u c? u drive people away from u...

yes, i noe nobody is perfect, neither am i or u...

but honestly, i've never met anyone so horrible like u...

i wish i've never met u! i don noe hw can yr frenz stand u??

i'm so ashamed that u were once my friend!

n most people in 'my group'

(no longer yr group, u jus follow us like a dog n we don care...=P)

hate u nw! we talk bad bout u so much n so many times that i've lost counted!

i completely ignore u n so does my other frenz!

we don care wat u think or feel anymore cuz u r a nobody 2 us!

we wished u've never transfer 2 smkbrp!

our lives would hav been so much better without u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!