Trial Exams Are Over!

finally! trial exams are over! done! finished!

i just hope my results are good enough...

ok, i don't really wanna think bout that now... ><''

i'm gonna rest for at least 2 days...

yes, no studying for 2 days!

a student have to take a short break after a month's worth of stress!

i'll be facebooking, watching videos,

watching anime, playing ps2,

making my eardrums vibrate to songs by U-Kiss,

teaching Garfield tricks

(it'll be much easier if he wasn't so stubborn,

but hey, he knows how to kiss me on the lips now! CHUUU~ ^.^)...and etc...

i'm gonna be more active on twitter now...

wow, i actually followed all of U-Kiss members on twitter,

even the previous 2 members...

if either one of them replied my tweets...

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

I'LL FREAK OUT! LIKE LITERALLY!!!

come on, its not common for a celeb to

reply your message out of the blue right??

if i get Kevin Woo to wish my sister h.birthday on twitter...

i bet my sis is gonna jump down from KLCC...CHOI!

pui yeng can't be that stupid and crazy...or can she?? hmmmm....XD

i promised pui yeng that i'll watch 下一站，幸福 with her...

when she is off to bed, huhuhu...

its my turn to spend quality time with my anime!!!

wait, what anime should i watch??

damn...never thought of which anime to watch...

think! think! think!

ahhhhh!!! can't think of anything to watch!!!

oh well, the idea will come to me later...

gosh, form 3 students will be having pmr next week...

time just flies...not as fast as the speed of light but...

you know, just fast! like whooosh!

i still feel like its still the beginning of the year...

now that i think back, its kinda hard to believe that

i actually went through the trial exam for a month! and now, its over...

a blink of an eye, i'll be sitting for my spm!

another blink of an eye, spm is all over!

another blink of an eye, and i'll be in college!

omg, time is flying so fast its actually scary...

imagine the end of the world coming so soon...

of course i don't mean next year, 2012...

ok, i gotta go and watch 下一站，幸福 with pui yeng now...

i'll try to update soon...=)

TTFN~>ta ta for now...

hehehe~ ^^

Tears

many people think that when someone cries,

the tears that flow from their eyes symbolize sadness...

that's true, but do tears ONLY symbolize sadness?

i don't think so...

the tears flowing from someone's eyes can mean

so many things other than being sad...

it can mean anger, frustration, stress and also joy and happiness...

when you're too happy, you cry with tears of joy...

when you are filled with so much negative feelings...you cry too...

that's one of the way to let out your feelings in order to feel better...

a few days ago, i cried...the tears flowing from my eyes were tears of anger and frustration...

i hate that particular person like only the shinigami(death god) knows

how much i want this person out of my life...

i cried cuz i freakin' hate the fact that she is related to me,

i hate her attitude,

the way she talks especially when she is joking

cuz her real motive is to try to sneak an insult...

i hate it the most when she scolds me even though she don't have the right to!

i'm her niece but i don't treat her as my aunt...

she's a stranger to me, i don't know her at all...

so bitch, you don't have the fucking right to even talk to me

or tell me what i can or cannot do!!!

i don't respect you at all and i hated you as i did then and now even more!!!

the next time i see you, don't you dare mess with me and pick a fight with me!!!

but if u want a fight, i'll give you EXACTLY what you want!

the tears i shed that day wasn't because

i felt sad or that i regretted what i said to you...

i never said anything wrong except facts!

i cried because i was so damn bloody pissed off

cuz i was forced to apologized to you!!!

my tears flowed from my eyes as my body felt boiling hot!

i was so mad cuz i didn't said enough to make you feel offended!!!!!!!!

i cried, clenching my fists when everyone blamed me...

you're lucky you left you bloody bitch

cuz i could have punched you right in your ugly face if you were still around!!!

i stopped crying when i realized it was not worth shredding a tear

for you cuz you are nothing to me!

my uncle(not her husband) asked me after a while,

what lesson have i learned today?

i just told him what i felt:

I DON'T HAVE TO GIVE A DAMN BOUT THE PEOPLE I HATE!!!

obviously not the answer he was expecting...

but i heard my sister said behind my back 'da jie, what an awesome answer!'

well, at least i know someone is on my side...

my uncle only looked surprised and said 'erm.............good'

ha! that's exactly what i was expecting!

Korean Music Wave 2011 Malaysia

24.9.2011...Korean Music Wave 2011 is over...

i wanted to go so badly to see U-Kiss...

since i didn't go, that proves one thing: dreams/wishes don't come true...

ok, maybe some do for some people...whatever...

i'm just not one of those lucky human beings

that get to see their idols live on stage...what a bummer...

all i can do is search and watch those fan cams on youtube...

the videos aren't clear but its better than nothing...

i watched the videos of U-Kiss performing my fav songs on stage

like 'round and round', 'neverland', '0330', and 'man man ha ni'...

oh how i wish with all my heart that i was there to hear them sing live on stage...

i hear all the fan girls screaming and the crowd being so energetic

while i was watching the videos...

and i was like, damn! i envy each and everyone of them!

i never got a chance to go to SuJu's concert, World Stage...etc

not even one concert...and its depressing....

my youngest sister loves U-Kiss as much as me...probably more...

and she was so sad that she couldn't see her fav U-Kiss member, Kevin Woo...

she cried at 7pm cuz that's when the show started

and she cried again and again each time she thought of U-Kiss...

i don't blame her...i know how she feels...

knowing that something so close to you and yet its far beyond your reach...

U-Kiss came to Malysia, performed at stadium merdeka in KL...

i go to KL for tuition every saturday and sunday...so do you get what i mean??

U-Kiss is in my country,

performing at the venue where its so close to my tuition center

and yet i still have no chance of seeing them perform live...

the feeling is so frustrating...

ah juan get to see kim hyun joong for free at the garden's hotel,

so did i but i'm not a huge fan of him...i'm the okok sort of fan...

but then i couldn't get to see U-Kiss which is my fav K-Pop boy group...

so where is the fairness in this??

ah juan cried with tears of happiness cuz she was able to see her fav idol...

my sister?? cried with tears of disappointment, depression and with such sadness!

me, on the other hand, tried not to think bout it too much on that day...

but obviously i was filled with negative feelings in me...

you might say i'm crazy cuz i'm getting pissed off with this

but its a huge deal to me...

i mean, how would you feel if your all time fav idol came to your country

and you can't go to their concerts to see them just for once in your life??

my sister and i could only listened to U-Kiss' songs

on my mp3 during that night...*big sigh*

life is fucking unfair...

i know that fucking well...

but i think there is a limit to everything...

life shouldn't be sooo damn unfair!

U-Kiss is probably back in Korea now...farewell U-Kiss...

i guess i will never get a chance to see you guys until the day i die...