I Still Love You And I Can't Stop Loving You...

no matter how many times i've dated,

all those diff guys i've dated...

why cant i stop thinking bout you??

why cant i stop loving u??

why is it so hard to let go of u??

why is it so hard to forget those dear sweet memories???

after i broke up with zhen yang, i didin even feel sad...

i didin even have a sense of regret!

i guess my love 4 him jus fade off...

but why did my feelings for you came back so soon???

could it be that my feelings 4 u had never died??

i hate how much i love u...

even when i was with him,

my mind was thinking of you...(sometimes)

n nw, everytime i c u...i always picture myself standing beside u...

i imagine myself holding yr hand,

talking 2 u, u whispering something sweet to my ear,

while yr frenz r around us,

watching us n saying wat a sweet n perfect couple we r...

hw i wish it was real...

2010 is yr las year in secondary school...time flies so fast...

u'll b leaving me n i'll never c u as much as i want 2...

u would go abroad 2 japan n after a year or so,

u will come back with another girl holding yr hand...

that girl would not b me...

u loving another girl, is a sight that i do not wish 2 c

as it will hurt me so much...

my time is running out, this is yr las year in school n

i hav no idea hw 2 tell u that

all this time some part of me still loves u very much...

i don even hav the guts 2 tell u hw i feel...

after such a long time, yr feelings 4 me must hav alreadi faded...

if i tell u wat i feel in my heart,

u might not believe wat i say n will definitely reject me...

i guess love reali does hurt...

hw i wish u could c this...

hw i wish u could c everything which i feel right nw...

me, pouring my heart n feelings, all of it in2 this blog...

but even if u c this...u will jus say this is bullshit,

u will not believe me at all...that i know very well...

there is no point if i confess 2 u,

u r having the exam of yr life this year n i don wan 2 affect yr studies...

so all i can do right nw is 2 admire u from a distance...

my love 4 u is invisible 2 u...

u can never c it clearly...

but hw i wish u could...i've never said i love u 2 u b4...

not through msn, sms, or even face 2 face with u...

i jus wish there's a chance 4 me 2 hug u close...

at the same time i will whisper those 3 words to yr ear...'I LOVE YOU'...

Fun At The Chemis Lab

normally, yxin, jas, zching

n i will feel bored n sleepy in chemis class...

time always seems 2 go slower during chemis lesson...

but 2day was seriously fun...n a lil bit childish!

we did 4 experiments

(i don hav 2 describe all these boring stuffs...

i'll jus get 2 the point where we had fun...)

after the experiment, our chemis teacher asked us 2 wash up the apparatus...

here is wen the fun started...

there were 4 diff chemicals in each test tube respectively...

all diff colours...blue, red, very light orange n the other is colourless...

we poured all the chemicals in2 1 beaker

which was filled wif copper oxide which after we burned it,

it turned from black 2 moss green...eww gross!

we mix everything 2gether and luckily it did not explode! *phew!*

the colour was reali disgusting!

i didin reali enjoy my food during lunch time at home...

cant help thinking hw nasty the colour was!

ok, so wen we were washing up the test tubes...things went a lil wild...

yxin was washing up the test tube n i was washing the spatula...

the water was so strong that it reflect on the spatula n water was everywhere...

yxin n i were wet but not wet as in literally...we both lol n said our fav sentence 'ji shui ren liao hai yao wan sui' (how old r u nw n yet why r u still palying with water?!) lolx!

i went n kept the spatula...yxin n jas were washing the other test tubes...

my hands were still wet so i shake my hands at them

n let the water on my hand wet them! lol, i'm so evil!

omg, we couldn't stop laughing!

we were so childish!

4 of us r 16 yrs old n yet we r still playing with water!

hahahahaha!

i gather my stuff n was about 2 leave the chemis lab

n suddenly yxin, jas n zching flick water at me...

yxin actually threw a palm full of water at me...

i stared at them with my 'oh man! great jus great look'.....lolx...

oh i 4got 2 mention that i nearly fainted after smelling the ammonia gas!

wat?! teacher was the one who asked us 2 take a sniff at it!

n while i was trying 2 sniff a lil of the gas,

i don noe hw...but mayb jas accidentally pushed me

n that shock me so i took a deep breath n breathe in a lot of the amount of the ammonia gas!

omg! i cant describe hw horrible the smell was!!!!!!!!

tq god, the gas was not poisonous!

but seriously, it made me cry a lil...

tears came out a lil from my eyes

n my chest felt heavy n it was hard 4 me 2 breathe 4 a while!

i hav a bad experience wif ammonia gas...

conclusion: make sure tat no one is standing near u while u r smelling the ammonia gas!