no matter how many times i've dated,
all those diff guys i've dated...
why cant i stop thinking bout you??
why cant i stop loving u??
why is it so hard to let go of u??
why is it so hard to forget those dear sweet memories???
after i broke up with zhen yang, i didin even feel sad...
i didin even have a sense of regret!
i guess my love 4 him jus fade off...
but why did my feelings for you came back so soon???
could it be that my feelings 4 u had never died??
i hate how much i love u...
even when i was with him,
my mind was thinking of you...(sometimes)
n nw, everytime i c u...i always picture myself standing beside u...
i imagine myself holding yr hand,
talking 2 u, u whispering something sweet to my ear,
while yr frenz r around us,
watching us n saying wat a sweet n perfect couple we r...
hw i wish it was real...
2010 is yr las year in secondary school...time flies so fast...
u'll b leaving me n i'll never c u as much as i want 2...
u would go abroad 2 japan n after a year or so,
u will come back with another girl holding yr hand...
that girl would not b me...
u loving another girl, is a sight that i do not wish 2 c
as it will hurt me so much...
my time is running out, this is yr las year in school n
i hav no idea hw 2 tell u that
all this time some part of me still loves u very much...
i don even hav the guts 2 tell u hw i feel...
after such a long time, yr feelings 4 me must hav alreadi faded...
if i tell u wat i feel in my heart,
u might not believe wat i say n will definitely reject me...
i guess love reali does hurt...
hw i wish u could c this...
hw i wish u could c everything which i feel right nw...
me, pouring my heart n feelings, all of it in2 this blog...
but even if u c this...u will jus say this is bullshit,
u will not believe me at all...that i know very well...
there is no point if i confess 2 u,
u r having the exam of yr life this year n i don wan 2 affect yr studies...
so all i can do right nw is 2 admire u from a distance...
my love 4 u is invisible 2 u...
u can never c it clearly...
but hw i wish u could...i've never said i love u 2 u b4...
not through msn, sms, or even face 2 face with u...
i jus wish there's a chance 4 me 2 hug u close...
at the same time i will whisper those 3 words to yr ear...'I LOVE YOU'...
