着物の女の子 ~KIMONO GIRL~: Found New Love, Found New Ex...

i feel so depressed...i cant think straight...

i spend the whole day listening to sad songs and sad music...

i spend the whole day trying to not let my tears flow...

but i failed to do so whenever i think bout u...

my mind went back to this afternoon...

i woke up at 12pm something, not because i'm lazy to wake up

but is because i slept really late last night studying...

i woke up n saw yr 1st sms...

i knew that the 1st sms from u was to say gud morning to me n u ask if i dreamt bout u...

n i thought, 'awww, thats so sweet...i hav someone special to say gud morning to me everyday...'

i was about 2 reply u

but then i thought i should take a look at my 2nd sms which is also from u...

but when i saw yr 2nd sms...

that upset me alot...

my heart felt like its been cut so fast...i felt so hurt...

u said u love me but then u had some feelings for her...

u had some feelings for her n u said u tried 2 stay away

from her during the melaka trip cuz u r afraid to fall in love wif her...

but on the day we coupled, the day u confess yr feelings to me,

u said u had true feelings 4 me during the trip...

u never mention bout having feelings 4 her...

n everything was a confusion 4 me...if u had feelings 4 her all this time,

that means from the day we coupled until 2day, all the 'i love u' u said 2 me....

everything was a lie??? there isn't a meaning 2 it???

i felt like u were toying wif me n toying my feelings...omg, i felt so stupid!

so which is true??? u said u r sori u lied 2 me...but u said u love me more than her...

u expect me to believe u...u expect me 2 forgive u??

i ask u, do u still hav feelings for her eventhough we r together?

i ask u 2 b honest wif me...

u said yes, u hav feelings for her n u dont know hw 2 get rid of it...

so wats the point of us coupling in the 1st place???

u said u r scared that the later u tell me the truth, the more hurt i will b...

when i ask u, hav u ever thought of breaking up wif me bcuz of her...

u said u never thought of that question b4 n u dont know...wth!

i told u honestly that i'm afraid of losing u 2 her

n i'm scared u'll 1 day leave me 4 her...

all u replied me is *speechless*....why r u speechless?

u said u love me more than her but when i ask u that question u were speechless...

so that means u dont love me at all cuz u love her...

u told me that 'if' we break up dont b angry at her...

of course i wont b angry at her! she is one of my bff!

nothing, not even bcuz of u can change our friendship...

there is no way we can become enemies!

yesterday, u made me cry for u cuz u were saying that

its life n u dont know when u might die n blah blah blah...

yes, i cried cuz i cant imagine losing u...

u said that it was the last time u will make me cry for u...

i said i doubt it, n i was definitely right! why?

cuz u made me cry again from morning til nw! n this is the worst!

u said u didin mean 2 hurt me,

if u didin mean to then why the heck am i crying??!

i ask u, wat do u want me 2 do nw?

i asked u cuz i cant think properly since i'm mentally n emotionally hurt!

then u ask me r we breaking up? should we need more time 2 think?

u were saying as if u really want 2 break up fast with me...

when i ask u do u still love me? do u love me more than her?

do u want 2 break up wif me? u said u actually dont know...

yr answer is like an excuse...

i replied u...letting u know that if u still love me we can be together

cuz i really dont want 2 break up wif u...

but then it all depends on u...if u really dont love me anymore just say the word...

u will b the one 2 break up wif me...its yr choice...

then u replied me...omg, the worse sms u ever sent me!

'the longer the time pass, the more hurt u are. i scare one day i will not love u anymore n that time, it hurts you more~ the best way is to break up nw~ but i promise u i will not fall in love with any girls until the end of the secondary school'

i said i love u n i 4giv u n i'll giv u time 2 4get bout yr feelings for her...

but if u want 2 break up then fine, i'll let u go eventhough it will be very hard 4 me...

but if thats yr choice, so be it...

n i dont care if u fall in love with another girl cuz thats none of my concern...

n yet i promise u that we can be friends...

yr last sms 2 me 2day is 'yes, i will NOT say sorry but thanks. thank you for giving me the happy memories eventhough it was short~ we can still be friends~ ^.^'

i cried my heart out!!!!!! all the memories of u n me came rushing into my head...

the melaka trip, when we were alone at the musuem, talking like close friends...

sitting 2gether wif u in the bus...

the feeling i felt, the connection i felt wif u...

the embarrassment i had when i realised i had accidentally fell asleep on yr shoulder...

my heart pumps faster n my breathing becomes faster...

i usually feel embarrass when i think bout that memory...

but nw i feel so hurt n i'm crying my heart out...when i think bout it...

i dont feel embarrass...i feel like i really want 2 go back 2 that time...that sweet memory...

i remembered hw much in common we had with each other...

u love anime, so did i...u shared jokes with me n i did too...

i shared japanese anime music with u n hoped u will think of me when u listen 2 them...