seriously!
i've consulted 4 doctors!
2 clinic doctors,
a skin specialist,
and a dermatologist!
2 clinic doctors said the itchy spots
could be flea or tick bites...
n they blame it on my baby garfield!!! f*** them!
i took the medications and antibiotics,
and they failed as medicines...
when the spots became worse and
i started to have more on my arms n legs,
i consulted the skin specialist at a hospital...
who was of no help!
and he also said garfield might be the cause of it...garfield again??!!!
my poor baby boy is getting blamed for everything!!!
come on, specialist??! my ass! i can sue him!
he said it was allergy reaction right after using
a normal cellophane tape to stick on my spots
and just look under a microscope...
how unprofessional...
he charged me RM300+ for pills,
cream, and body wash...
damn him! my spots never got better!
he even adviced me to stay away from garfield!
my mom, all paranoid now cos' my sisters n
her are developing spots too but not as much as me...
(so to put it simply, i suffered the most!)
my mom took garfield to the pet shop
and requested the staffs to take care of
garfield until everyone is recovered...
everyone except my dad and my maid...
they don't even have one spot on them!
i miss garfield a lot...
i took every chance i have to go to the pet shop to see him...
whenever he sees me,
he meows bitterly,
telling me he wants to go home...
i just stroke his paws and his head while crying...
i couldn't hold back my tears at all...
i promised garfield that once i'm recovered,
i'll take him home...
but deep down, some part of me, even now,
i think that i shouldn't keep my hopes too high...
i know that my all-paranoid mother will be thinking
a million times more on whether we should
continue to keep garfield as a pet and risk repeating history...
it was tuesday night when my mom
took my sisters to the same clinic i went to...
it was the same doctor i consulted before...
he recognised me and he can tell that
my spots were much worse than the last time i consulted him...
he said it might be lupus...
lupus???!!! that's really serious and highly contagious!!!
he suggested that everyone in my family
who have these spots should be emitted to the hospital!
so my sisters, my mom and me packed our clothes
and my dad took us to the damansara hospital,
which in the end, was a complete waste of time and petrol...
the hospital had no rooms and there wasn't a
24 hr on call skin specialist to give us a medical check-up,
no point getting staying in the hospital either...
so we all went home...
the next morning, my mom took my sisters and me
to the subang jaya hospital to consult the dermatologist...
the doctor scraped some of my spots to get my skin as a specimen...
he was very dedicated and he went through doing
experiments with my skin sample until
he came to a final conclusion: fungus growth...
he said it was a very vicious fungus cos' it was so active
but not really life-threatening...
but then we weren't sure where did the fungus came from...
the only new thing that recently came
into our lives was our new pet, garfield...
but how could it be him???!
we've requested the staff at the pet shop to give garfield
a flea-bath and the vet did a medical check-up on him
but there was nothing wrong with him...
except cats are natural carriers
of ring worms andmy spots looked like
it was caused by ring worms...
but the vet said that even those
who get ring worms
from cats wouldn't even have
so many spots like mine...
after that, my mom went completely paranoid...
she ordered my maid to vacuum the sofas,
changed the curtains,
took everyone's bed mattress out to sun,
changed the bed sheet and covers,
moped the floor with dettol
and even wash our clothess with dettol...
arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! what a headache!
the dermatologist even told me to
stay at home and rest for 3 days...
so i didn't went to school on wednesday till friday...
but of course i went to tuition on saturday and sunday...
i went back to school on monday and
it was hard for me in class for i couldn't stop
rubbing/scratching on my spots...
they were damn itchy!
i just couldn't stop myself!
i cried in school for every time i thought of garfield,
i get emotional cos' i miss him so damn much!
i tried not to let anyone in class to notice my tears
but i couldn't hide my tears from jasmine...
i can't even hold back my tears...
so everyday, i have this routine:
wake up extra early in the morning, shower,
apply the cream medicine on every spot i have,
take breakfast and pill medicine,
go to school, come home,
shower after lunch, apply medicine again...
and i have to hear the same questions from
my parents like how are you today, pui theng?
i know they ask cos' they care
but asking me every single day is really starting to get annoying...
i'm getting tired of answering back
the same answers like 'ok lor' or 'i'm fine'...haizzzzz
i do this every weekday since on weekends
i don't go to school except for tuition...
but still i hate this routine!
hate the: waking up extra early just to apply medicine
(damn, you have no idea how many spots i have! more than 50+! seriously!!!)
and taking pill medicine after every breakfast!
hate it! hate it! hate it!
and i hate not having garfield around in the house!
eventhough he has only been staying in my house
as long as the 2 week school holidays,
i've already grown used to his presence...
i miss him so so so much!!!
i miss giving him food and water,
miss stroking him,
miss hugging him and showing all my love to him,
miss tickling him on his belly,
miss watching tv with him,
miss playing with him with or
without his favourite ping pong ball,
miss seeing him running and jumping from one sofa to another,
miss racing with him to the back of the kitchen
or to the living room and even upstairs,
i miss spending time with him
while i'm using the computer and
he just lays on the computer desk...
i also miss him manja-ing me and
i miss the way he licks me to let me know
he really does love me!
GOD! I MISS EVERYTHING BOUT GARFIELD!!!!
the worst part, is knowing that i may have to give up my bibi boy...
my mom said i can't risk getting the
same fungus growth again once i'm completely recovered
for my trial exams are coming soon...
all the itchiness can really affect
my studies and preparations for the exams...
and honestly, now that i'm recovering
and i don't feel itchy anymore,
i don't wanna go through it for the
2nd time again...i've suffered enough!
but then no one actually knows where and
how did i get fungus growth...
everyone only SUSPECT and not
COMFIRMED that garfield caused all this...
so i'm not going to give him up unless if it really is him
causing the fungus growth on me and
then only i have no other option but to either sell him
or give him to the vet who i trusted
to take good care of garfield for me now...
she is the only who i believe,
will take great care of garfield (since she a vet after all)
life is unfair and i know it...
i may continue to keep garfield and
i may have to be forced to give him up...
nothing is certain now...
i can only hope for the best,
but i won't be keeping my hopes too high...
i might go insane if i'm too disappointed...
