My Dearest, Wait For Me!

oh please be patient with me,
i'll come for you very soon...
just let me finish the 1st upcoming exam
and i'll be with you as long as you wish...
i'll be all yours for the 1 week school holiday...
so just wait for me...
please forgive me for not touching you
and for not watching you...
i'll give you all my love to you very soon...
kuroshitsuji season 1 and season 2, my dear anime...
i love you sooo much!
sengoku basara season 2,
i won't forget you either...
i'll watch you and kuroshitsuji
straight away right after the exam...
believe me when i say that its very hard
for me to resist watching you guys...
you both just stay safe and protected in my drawer...
(stupid me, they are dvd's...
as if they will get up and walk away...crazy me! lol) XD

Faded Feelings, Please Don't Return...

i'll never forget the memories i have created with you,

they are just too sweet to be forgotten...

i appreciate the time i've spend with you and

i never regretted it not even for a single second...

me being friends with you is already enough for me,

i don't ask or demand for more and i don't desire you as a lover anymore...

my feelings for you have faded slowly but it took longer than i expected...

i guess i must have really loved you...

now i'm free from that feeling which is a good thing

because i know the one you love is not me but her...

and i understand completely...

when you feel love for a person,

you can't control it when the feeling just naturally comes...

having this one-sided love hurts so its better to not have the feeling at all...

better to get rid of the hurt because

i know you and me has no progress at all and will never go any further...

knowing we can talk everyday as normal, close friends,

makes me feel very happy...

you caring for me, always being concern for me

and me doing the same for you...

i guess this is how it should be...

better to be friends than enemies,

better to be friends than lovers...

i just hope that you don't misunderstand

when you realised i've been looking at you once and a while...

i'm just being observant...

i regret to say that is one of my habit...

i hope we can stay this way, as very close friends...

i'm satisfied with the way we are now...

i'm just always scared of making you feel annoyed

just because i chat with you everyday...

i don't mind if you chat with me everyday,

i'm always available if you want someone

to chat with you to get rid of your boredom...

i want us to be friends forever no matter what happens...

i wonder if i'm being selfish

for wanting us to be friends for as long as we live...

A Song That Reflects On My Love Life

You know, everything that is low flows

I know, time has passed and i have already changed
Because to forget everything time is necessary.

I just want you to stay as you are a little longer.
As for you, how do you want me be?

To me, your someone that i can't replace

This night I'll be over you

I'll say it over and over again

Words of love and these kinds of painful thoughts.
How long will this continue?

If I caused you to end it, then even I understand

Even though I really knew from the beginning all along that it would end up this way.
Flimsy words on a thread, our locked gazes disconnected.

Even though it comes close we can'1t see it.
As for you, what is the meaning of the two of us?

Inside me, you overflow from my fingertips

This night, I'll be over you

I'll confirm it over and over again

Memories of love and these kinds of feelings.
I expect I understand it is as if I am trying to catch my emotions in my hand

Even though I totally know that they are things that cannot return.
As for you, how do you want me be?

To me, your someone that I can't replace

This night I'll be over you

I'll say it over and over again

Words of love and these kinds of painful thoughts...

~Song: This Night by Chemistry~

Immortal Love

a man who kills without a reason,

kills without feeling guilt,

obeying every command,

and has been tainted by blood of his enemies...

his dark past was created by his own bloody sword...

his silver eyes are scary,

yet breathtaking and mysterious...

his face, his features were too beautiful

to be own by someone so dark and evil

centuries past, his life remains unchanged...

it was meaningless, pointless...

for him to continue living...

one day, an angel, so pure and innocent

was able to melt the man's stone ice heart...

her kindness and her love was all he needed...

the man fell in love with her...

and the angel returned his love...

he vowed to protect her, promise to love only her...

the man had finally have a purpose to live...to live for her...

the man betrayed his family for love,

betrayed his master for love,

and sided with light over darkness for love...

the angel and the man spend their days together,

but then the time came for the angel to leave this world...to be reborn...

before she part, she comforted her soulmate...

in his arms, she whispered as tears flow from her eyes...

'i love you, we are fated to be together...

but i regret to say we can never be together forever...

i'll leave this world and my soul will be reborn over and over again...

i'll never forget you, so wait for me...

find my soul once i'm reborn and we can be together once again...

i'll always love you and only you...

remember that you promise to live your life well for me...

goodbye, my love...'

the man held her tightly in his arms...

the angel had her last breath,

soon, her body slowly turned cold...

and her body disappears,

golden lights were formed as they make their way up to the starry night sky...

the man felt heartbroken, staring at his empty arms where he held his angel...

the man wept for the death of his beloved...

for decades and centuries,

the man had to go through the same pain and sadness...

he was a lonely immortal,

he longed for his angel's touch, gentleness and love after her death...

his angel was reborn again and again...and he never fails to find her soul...

the man and angel were always able to reunite each time after so long...

their love is strong and holds no bounds...

eventhough they can never be together forever...

the man's immortal love will be eternally pure and true for the angel...